Sunday, December 13, 2009

my last winter

it is so cold inside the room
i wonder why...??

so i walk to the window
wahhh it's already white outside the room
it's snowing

the 1st snow during my final year winter...
this season, it's gonna be my last winter season..

here, during winter, last 4 years, i experienced the most lowest temperature in my life
-35 degree celcius
and here, i had my experience of few times falling on the ground during walking on the slippery ice...
here also, i had my memorable time with my classmates playing shooting ice ball, making the snowman...
and here too, i had my chocolaty dirty shoes everytime the ice started to melt and mix with the ground and become MILO..


im gonna miss ukraine
im gonna miss simferopol
im gonna miss bahcisarai
im gonna miss kiev

before im gonna miss everything here, i will try to treasure anything left so that i will not regret later. (as u know, it is not easy to come back to ukraine as we Malaysians need to apply visa.)

Sunday, December 6, 2009

the shooting bullet questions

Really...studying medicine is not easy.

of coz oxford handbook just to give u the clue. but for the details, 1 thick book for 1 topic is not enough. even searching the internet also is not enough. there's no book perfectly compiled. because year by year, new info come out, update the old one. plus, different doctor's opinion from different countries all over the world make 1 topic have slightly different explaination.

luckily i have Merck, awin has Harrison, Gima has Kumar n Clark and others has different book.
so, it is like having a scientists conference in the class while facing the shooting bullet questions from our lecturer (diagnostic therapist). Madam Mengileva is the best! hehehe~

hope i can long last remember her teaching....and become a good doctor....

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Курбан баuрам

Salam eid adha to all my muslims brothers n sisters,

every year, we celebrate eid adha. but how much we put the meaning of Qurban (sacrifice) inside our heart and life?

many of us living in what people called it as comfort zone. we do our own things, we dont interrupt other people. yet, we forgot about something....how much have we spend our time to look back to what we had done. was it something good for ourselves, or was it something that damages ourselves.

im sure, many of us had experience of doing THE WRONG WAY. (as a muslim, we understand the wrong way or MUNGKAR means anything that brings 'murka Allah'.) but, only few of us realize the reality. and only fewer of us make SACRIFICE by throwing away the wrong way out of their life.

it's hard to make sacrifice, yet it's easy to celebrate Eid adha.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

3 weeks holiday~quarantine swine flu

it's been a long time....

im bored. 3 weeks holiday.2weeks had passed. 1 more week to go. all because of the epidemic of swine flu.

....and here i am. in my room. with my travelmate 6291. on the bed. under the blanket.

i heard outside is so cold n windy. (my teacher said, "if it is a cold wind, means it is from the north") the weather...that ive been through all this 5 years in ukraine. never imagine, 1 day i will never feel this kind of environment again....

this is my final year of my course, also would be my last time to play with the snow. after this no more snow, no more cold, no more russians....

in another hand, i cant wait to finish up my study. go back to malaysia. to the hot country. meet my family. settle down. and start working.

OMG!,that means im back to where my sinus attacks me everyday. thats another point why i like living in cold country, my sinus attack frequently appear during summer, and less during other seasons. while in malaysia, it will be throughout the year.

anyway, HUJAN EMAS DI NEGERI ORANG, HUJAN BATU DI NEGERI SENDIRI, still... LEBIH BAIK DI NEGERI SENDIRI aite?

Monday, July 13, 2009

MAYBANK vs CIMB

i lost my maybankard when my purse was robbed. my fiance, his CIMB card already cut into 2 pieces. So, we both need to redo our cards.

we went out late that day. we reached ampang point about 12 o'clock in the afternoon. as we afraid that we couldnt complete our mission before lunch time, so we went separately. i went to MAYBANK while he went to CIMB.

at MAYBANK
there were 2 people before me. the officer was a woman. she's so efficient while doing her work.

after i got my bank card, i went to my fiance, at CIMB.
from far, i can see his reddened face. he's been waiting for 1 hour, and only 1 people in line before him since 1 hour ago.

yes i know maybank is the giant bank in malaysia, but CIMB must improve their services if they want to compete with other banks. not only the new interior design, new uniform, but best services must come 1st.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

nona

it's on nona tv3, nana af's wedding. whats so special bout it? bcoz she's an artist? nope... im quite touch bcoz she made a suprise on her wed day. she gave her mum a car (a merce) as an appreciation for taking care n raised her.

ne mnoga lyudi delait vo tak.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

i just finished my exam. Alhamdulillah everything went well. it's time to go back home. malaysia, here i come.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Videoclip DISKOTEKA AVARIA in KL




I love this song since my 2nd year in ukraine. They are russian pop music group. I got this from my roomate, where she got the link from her friend in UK.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

positive side of early marriage

...there was 1 moment in oncology class, Dr J (the oncologist) asked us about the statistic of breast cancer incidence in malaysia. i answered according to my experience doing practical in selayang and ampang hospitals. malays more than other races. because i saw most of the breast cancer patients are malays either during the checkup or in the ward. yet, the expression from Dr J's face seemed that he didnt agree with my statement. But, he didnt say anything....

on the way back home, i searched about it in my nokia 7390 (LIFE internet-gprs). after i opened few websites, then i got the answer.

  • Breast cancer incidence per 100 000 population in Malaysia (2003): 33.9 for Malay, 59.7 for Chineese and 55.8 for Indian
  • Cumulative risk to get cancer for Chineese (1 per 14), Indian (1 per 15) and Malay (1 per 24).
means, the incidence in malay less than in chineese and indian.


the next day, i told Dr J about my research and.... he started to smile. he asked us to remember back what risk factors of breast cancer and relate to the statistic.

risk factors
  • age: more than 50 years old (risk increase by age)
  • race: white women more likely to develop than black women
  • family history of breast cancer
  • history of endometrial or ovarian cancer
  • present previous history of breast cancer
  • long estrogen exposure
  • long menstrual history
  • late pregnancy (after 30 years old) or absent of pregnancy
  • lifestyle: obesity, lack exercise and alcoholic

malays (muslims) in malaysia, most of them get married at the young age of twenties because islam and also in malay tradition, ENCOURAGE PEOPLE TO GET MARRY, to avoid the influence of negative moral. this leads to early pregnancy (pregnancy it will pushes breast cells into the final phase of maturation). islam juga menggalakkan kita MERAMAIKAN UMMAH (byk zuriat). pregnancy causes many hormone changes in the body. For one thing, pregnancy interrupts the normal menstrual cycle hormone levels for some time. Some studies have suggested that breast-feeding may slightly lower breast cancer risk, if only breast-feeding is continued for 1½ to 2 years or if many children are breast-fed. The reason for this may be that both pregnancy and breast-feeding REDUCE A WOMAN'S TOTAL NUMBER OF LIFETIME MENSTRUAL CYCLES.

but recently, malaysian artists get married around the age of early thirties and some of them even older than that. this CHANGES PERSPECTIVE OF THE CITIZEN. because many of them idolize/admire famous artists (especially malays. too fanatic...).

if this continuous, i think in the future, there might be much increase in breast cancer incidence in malays.


#extra-breast cancer is the most common cancer occuring in women, and the 2nd most common
of all cancer occuring in population after lung cancer.
every 3 minutes, 1 woman is diagnosed to have breast cancer (USA)
every 3 minutes, 1 woman is died because of breast cancer (USA)
every year, 30 000 women and 200 men is diagnosed to have breast cancer (UK)

Friday, May 29, 2009

cant help it. my broken english... neway, will try to improve it in the future. hope you can still understand the content. (' ^,)
I like him, because of his smile (melts my hardstone heart....). I like him, because he is polite (again melts my heart). I like him because he is protective. I like him, because he worries about Mei. I like him, because he fights for Mei. (if only he can fights for me...lalala)

I love you Shibata Rihito-sama. (But Hiro-kun already married to Ayaka. uwaaa)

You guys must be really curious, who is he?, despite the fact that im already engaged (sorry my dear...) hehe~...The truth is Shibata Rihito-sama is the male character in Mei-chan No Shitsuji Japan doramas. I already watched it for hundreds times (too many I dont even remember ...) Just this time I have the idea to write about this. hehe~

All couples out there. I recommend you to watch this doramas. why?

Even this doramas is based on fantasy MANGA story by Miyagi Riko. Still, the real points hidden inside the story. It shows you how to handle a relationship. TO FIGHT FOR YOUR LOVE ONE. Both sides, NOT ONE-SIDED ONLY. Dont let the third party ruin yourlife (either the third person, or any other people who wants to destroy your trust to your partner or destroy your relation). Macam2 cerita aku dengar dari kawan2 dan tengok cerakarama kt tv, orang melayu kita yg kekadang penuh dengan hasat dengki yg kuat, tak senang tengok orang lain bahagia. Jangan la di huru-harakan rumah-tangga orang tu. Yang peliknya, kekadang tu datang dari saudara-mara sendiri pulak tu. But, thats the truth in real life. Ish ish ish....

ORDINARY IS THE WAY OF LIFE. That's the decision made by Shuntaro (Mei's father) and also later made by Mei too. Not everything you can get in the world, and not everything you can give up. As long as you make the decision, then fight for it to the end. Aja....fighty oh!

This might be some youngsters story, but from my point of view, this is important for every couple. (young-adult-elderly)


My posts lately seem to be from a love-counsellor. What to do. Love is a big issue during this prime time (at the age of twenties). For me and for those out there. also for my 3 siblings who are about my age. being twenties is full of ups and downs. many of my friends had been through that too and now, some of them are in the beginning of new life. Sometimes, the future is not like what we had long-time imagined before, maybe better than that, even in another way.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna? Never say goodbye to your marriage or to your love?

Hindustan film Kabhi Alvida Na Kehna. Really hits me to the heart. Soooo heartbroken. It comes to the part that i would say "If that is love, then it is scary"

Why must love separate a marriage? why must love separate parents from children?
Scary aite?

In the 1st place, why is this happening?

So many people get married even they dont start with love, but ends with happy ending. BECAUSE life is not only about love. Some people just feel that only love is love, (which means when u find someone who can give u happiness, understands you well). The truth is every other things such as give and take, being responsible, appreciation, sacrifice and so on are also love. It even means deeper than that. How can someone work hard for you (maintaning your relation and life) if it is not because of love. Right? Love is not something visible only, but also something invisible. hidden somewhere that you need to treasure. I heard so many couples said, i wan more, more than that. then, why not ask for it from your partner? not from the other person. or else, ask your self 1st, have you done enough to deserve more?

If u watch that movie, then you'll know that Maya and Dev, they dont work hard for their marriage. Dev too concern about his injured leg and football while Maya about the cleaning thing. When you overdo one thing, then thats why you dont see other thing. I blame Rhea too, maybe she's too busy with her work (but she still can spend her time to have a morning jog with Dev. besides, she's not like other women who left her handicap husband for another man), but what about Rishi? Even he has a same work life as Rhea, he still manage to show his love to Maya. Means no reason. because it can be done even in another way. Not all excuses can solve the problem, and not all excuses are acceptable.

Futhermore, we women, hard to change our love and life. Because Rhea loves Dev, she let him go. But it's hard to get a replacement. A big hole in the heart, it's hard to close it back. She stays as a single mother. Different from Rishi, man usually can easily get one even they said they cant initially. This is the reality out there all around the world.

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So... when you wanna get marry, you need to get ready yourself to a place where you cannot turn back. Ask yourself, why you wanna get marry at the 1st place? Can you be sure that you can SAVE THE MARRIAGE TILL THE VERY END. Yes, many things will happen in the future that we cant predict, but you can still save everything as long as you have a very deep stand in your heart.

When dealing with problems, 1st of all, please dont make it a big problem (that you think divorce is the only solution). Yes, a problem is a problem, but try to find a good way to solve it. Make PATIENT as your teacher in dealing your problem and dont ever try to find a shortcut.

Another advice to marriage couple, whenever you have problems, dont get an opposite gender as your adviser. Sooner or later, you'll never know that you have cross the line. If you think that opposite gender is better to understand your partner, then try to get someone older that you'll never can marry to. Father, mother, father-in-law, mother-in-law, grandma, grandpa, uncle, untie. Try to listen to their advices. Usually they will talk about their marriage too, and how they deal with problems. Sometimes, you'll impress with their story, that reminds you of your happy memories together with your partner. It is really important to remind yourself about your past beautiful memories that makes you dont even wanna leave your partner.

My dear friends, marriage is not an easy thing. The life is different, you cant make things one-sided. LOVE IS LIKE THE LIVING OF 1 SOUL IN 2 DIFFERENT BODIES while MARRIAGE IS LIKE THE LIVING OF 1 LIFE IN 2 DIFFERENT BODIES. (Are you agree with me?) Later, the others (children) will join you . You cant make things easily ('lekeh-lekeh') here and there as you make right now in your life today. Of course it is because it will effect each and everybody around you.

So, make a good decision that you'll never regret. And once you already made one, dont brake it!







I dont have the right to give a good advice because Im yet to be married but.... i heard, listened and watched a lot about the scenario. I hope Im giving a helpful advice to everyone and myself too. Im praying for everyone happiness.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Apabila kita ditanya kenapa kita SOLAT?

Kebiasanya kita menjawab...
  • kerana suruhan TUHAN. Dia pencipta yg Maha Berhak di sembah
  • solat itu TIANG agama
  • termasuk dalam RUKUN Islam, kalau x solat maka kita takda bezala kita dengan orang bukan Islam
  • sebab dari kecik2 mak/ayah PUKUL ATAU MEMBEBEL kalau x solat
  • selalu ikut ayah pergi MASJID
  • budak sekolah kata sebab ustaz kata solat tu WAJIB. tak buat, dapat DOSA
  • adik kata sebab kakak TEGUR, jadi solat la sebab malas nak dengar dia kasi ceramah
  • sebab TENGOK kawan solat, so aku pun solat la
  • sebab kalau x solat, mencari nahas masuk API NERAKA
  • sebab lepas solat, boleh BERDOA minta apa yg dihajati


Kadang2 kita menjawab....


  • sebab nak dapat PAHALA, kumpul untuk timbangan di AKHIRAT. buat jahat dapat dosa. Kalau x cari pahala, bagaimana timbangan kita kelak?
  • sebab solat bantu AMAR MAKRUF nahi mungkar
  • sebab nak jaga IMAN, hubungan dengan Allah
  • sebab lepas solat bole berdoa memohon KEAMPUNAN Tuhan
  • sebab kalau x solat, mampukah kita nak QADA' semua solat yg kita tinggalkan jika tunggu umur da 50, 60-an baru nak solat?
  • sebab dah TUA, rumah kata pergi kubur kata mari! (habis, muda2 x perlu solat kah? Nak tunggu nak mati baru solat?
  • sebab kita golongan akhir zaman, tanda2 besar QIAMAT sudah ada, sejauh mana kita masih leka dengan perkara duniawi

Jarang2 sekali kita menjawab
  • sebab dalam solat ada SYAHADAH. Kalau x solat, x syahadah 1 hari?? jadi sejauh mana keIslaman kita hari ini?
  • sebab solat tu bole mengingatkan PERBEZAAN kita dengan orang yg dah meninggal, bahawa kita masih ada masa untuk menambah pahala dan meningkatkan iman
  • sebab melalui solatlah, sekurang2nya dpt mengingatkan kita untuk berdoa dan BERSEDEKAH pahala kepada ibu bapa kita, datuk nenek kita dan saudara-mara kita yg telah berada di alam barzakh. Di dunia bukan main kita kata kita sayang ibu bapa kita, tp kalau mereka sudah tiada, sejauh mana kita menunjukkan kasih sayang kita?
  • sebab melalui solat, dapat melepaskan KERINDUAN pada Allah
  • kerana ikhlas untuk mendapat KEREDHAAN-NYA
Kekadang kita juga lupa bahawa solat ini juga membawa kepentingan dari segi meningkatkan BENTENG DIRI kita. ( tidak mudah takut dengan makhluk lain seperti jin..) Dengan sentiasa mengingatkan diri bahawa Allah Tuhan Yg Maha Esa, secara tidak langsung menjauhikan diri daripada dengan mudah terpedaya dengan HASUTAN SYAITAN secara terus atau melalui org lain. ( kebanyakan org melayu kita mudah terpedaya dengan ajaran sesat)

Sudah ramai orang barat membuat kajian berkaitan solat, dan akhirnya mereka membuat keputusan untuk memeluk Islam. Sedangkan kita yg dilahirkan sebagai seorang Islam masih lagi meringan-ringankannya. Memang benar, sesiapa yg bergelar Islam, Allah telah janjikan syurga pada setiapnya. Namun, mahukah kita menjadi golongan yg terakhir masuk ke syurga? WallahuAlam. fikir2kan lah.


Walau apa pun jawapan anda...kita sudah tidak mampu tepuk dada tanya selera. Solat bukan la suatu perkara yg kita lakukan jika kita teringin, atau jika kita ada mood. Tapi solat itu adalah AMANAH dari PENCIPTA kita, ALLAH Subhanahu Wa Taala. Sebagai manusia, atau dengan lebih spesifik INSAN (yg bermaksud yg LUPA), jika kita diingatkan tentang bersolat maka bersegeralah kita melakukannya sebelum terlambat. Lagipun, sifat lupa ini adalah sifat yg lemah...maka sebagai pelupa yg lemah, kita sama sekali tidak boleh sombong kepada Pencipta kita.

IsyaAllah. Sesamalah kita...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

when i was a kid, my mom bought me a storybook, i dun really remember the full title of the book. but, i do remember, the story is about a bad-tempered dog. (i forgot the name, i'll give a new 1 for each character)

okay, 1 day a dog named bob, walk around the neighborhood. from far away, he sees pup and pyp (a twin dogs) playing together happily. but as he come nearby them, both of them become silent. later bob continue his walk as he feels it is not enjoyable anymore to play there with them.

later, he meets a group of cats and dogs laying on the grass at the playgound while their owners are playing together. soon after he come nearby, all the kids take their cats and dogs and walk away from bob. bob doesnt understand why everyone trying to avoid him.

later he meets cindy (a middle age female dog). he tells cindy what had happened that day. cindy bring bob to the lake. she asks bob to see his face in the water.

now, bob already knows why everyone trying to avoid him. it is his ugly ANGRY face, not just scares them but really dont fit the happy and pleasant atmosphere.

since then, bob always put a smile on his face. now, he can play with everyone happily.


conclusion: dont be a bad-tempered person. especially if u dont have a reason to get angry to other people who are not connected to ur problem. it's not scary but it's UGLY. if u dont believe me, jus try this-> everytime u get angry, try to see urself in a mirror or ask ur friend to snap a pic. what does it look like? my bf once took my pic when i got angry, really it's not cute. or should i say enough to boil the water, or to scare the ghost. hahaha~

p/s: anyone who ever read this storybook, please let me know the real title of the story.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

HALAL and HARAM in food intake

As a muslim, we should concern about halal and haram especially about food. Last time, I tried to collect some info in the internet about this, and I just found only few articles providing the good info, but they are not in a full-version.

HALAL AND HARAM. We learned about this since we were in kindergarten (even just to know pigs and dogs are forbidden to eat), yet we discovered more about it during our school lives.
During Islamic education class, we learn about animals that we cannot eat are pigs and dogs, animals that we kill it without intention because of Allah (chicken, cow and ect.), animals which live in 2 different natures (eg: frogs live in water n land), wild animals which have eye-tooth (canine tooth like tiger, fox and ect.) or carnivore birds which have sharp nails (eagle). each of it has its significant reason.

Besides, sometimes people forget about the foods that they get using 'haram money' are also forbidden (money from stealing, money get from lying or money doing haram work such as GRO and ect). Every single things should be concerned before we eat, because every haram foods that we digest, become bad parts of our body. all this things can darkens our hearts (subjectively) as u wil feel 'aahhh it's easy doing bad rather than doing good'. but yet, u forget the trouble u wil get into later in life by doing wrong.

Get drunk is haram in Islam. Because once you get drunk, you will hallucinate and sometimes do bad things without any purposes. Muslims cannot drink or eat anything contain alcohols inside it.(Wine, vodka, beer....Chocolate also can be haram to eat if it contain ethyl alcohol)

Yeah, some people can say why Islam forbid muslims to drink alcohol? because u can drink without getting drunk, hallucinate etc. but, the truth is, it's hard to control when u start drinking. statistics already showed the result. in fact, the history since before Islam is appeared also showed the same. people do unreasonable things when they drunk. Also in medical too. Alcohol can cause sooo many diseases such as
Alcohol and cardiovascular disease
Alcoholic liver disease
Alcoholic hepatitis
Alcohol and cancer
Alcohol and weight
Fetal alcohol syndrome
Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder
Alcoholism
Blackout (alcohol-related amnesia)
Wernicke-Korsakoff syndrome
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so, why getting nearer to alcohol? prevention is better than cure aite?





msg: Certain food ingredients or housewhole things might be haram too, because it may contains of pork's oil or lard or animal gelatin. For further info :-

http://www.geocities.com/CollegePark/Field/7207/halal.htm

http://www.food-info.net/uk/index.htm (you can check the E-numbers at the ingredient column of the food packet before you buy anything that are without halal sign)




#reference for easy understanding (in malay)

1-Sebenarnya persoalan hukum haram dalam makan ini bukan saja terletak pada babi dan anjing. Memanglah kedua-dua haiwan ini jelas disebut dalam kitab akan haram hukumnya.. tetapi untuk binatang lain kita tidak boleh kata , selain babi dan anjing ..sebat atau balun sajalah..Ini adalah kerana Rasul kita telah mengariskan beberapa panduan untuk kita ..seperti binatang dua alam haram memakannya, binatang bertaring dan berbisa juga haram untuk dimakan ,binatang yang memakan daging juga haram untuk memakannya dan terdapat beberapa binatang yang terkandung dalam khilaf ijmak ulamak tentang hukumnya seperti..walaupun nabi berkata semua ikan dalam laut boleh dimakan tapi katakan ikan buntal.. ikan ini mempunyai bisa dan di sinilah terletaknya ijmak ulamak kerana yang berbisa tentunya akan memudaratkan tubuh badan...
2- "Rasulullah melarang makan semua binatang buas yang bertaring dan burung yang berkuku mencengkeram." (Riwayat Bukhari)
Yang dimaksud Binatang Was (siba'), yaitu binatang yang menangkap binatang lainnya dan memakan dengan bengis, seperti singa, serigala dan lain-lain. Dan apa yang dimaksud dengan burung yang berkuku (dzi mikhlabin minath-thairi), yaitu yang kukunya itu dapat melukai, seperti burung helang, rajawali, ruak-ruak bangkai dan burung yang sejenis dengan helang.

do you...?

The earth is getting older,

do you care about it?

The weather is getting colder,

do you feel it?

The sun is brighten,

do you realize it?

The trees, flowers...all are like stones

so static, with no fresh..

Maybe they know something

something that are hidden in this millennium n busy world

something that people nowadays do not even bother about it

The secret of the nature occurrence

by its CREATOR...